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Holy hell. . . I just finished the latest book in the Harry Potter series. I bought it yesterday and finished all 652 pages just now. OMG I can't tell you how deep this book is just read it.
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Well all I can say if that I hate finals time
Your Birthdate: December 20 |
Your birth on the 20th day of the month adds a degree of emotion, sensitivity, and intuition to your reading.
The 2 energy provided here is very social, allowing you to make friends easily and quickly.
Yet you are apt to have a rather nervous air in the company of a large group.
You have a warmhearted nature and emotional understanding that constantly seeks affection.
You are very prone to become depressed and moody, as emotions can turn inward and cause anxiety and mental turmoil.
It can be hard for you to bounce back to reality when depression sets in.
When things are going well, you can go just as far the other way and become extremely affectionate. |
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You Are A Fig Tree |
You are very independent and strong minded.
A hard worker when you want to be, you play hard too.
You are honest and loyal. You hate contradiction or arguments.
You love life, and you live for your friends, children, and animals.
A great sense of humor, artistic talent, and intelligence are all gifts you possess. |
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Your Seduction Style: Ideal Lover |
You seduce people by tapping into their dreams and desires.
And because of this sensitivity, you can be the ideal lover for anyone you seek.
You are a shapeshifter - bringing romance, adventure, spirituality to relationships.
It all depends on who your with, and what their vision of a perfect relationship is. |
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| You scored as Existentialism. Your life is guided by the concept of Existentialism: You choose the meaning and purpose of your life.
“Man is condemned to be free; because once thrown into the world, he is responsible for everything he does.”
“It is up to you to give [life] a meaning.”
--Jean-Paul Sartre
“It is man's natural sickness to believe that he possesses the Truth.”
--Blaise Pascal
More info at Arocoun's Wikipedia User Page...
Existentialism | | 95% | Justice (Fairness) | | 70% | Hedonism | | 65% | Utilitarianism | | 65% | Divine Command | | 45% | Kantianism | | 40% | Strong Egoism | | 35% | Apathy | | 30% | Nihilism | | 15% | </td>
What philosophy do you follow? (v1.03)
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 | You scored as A Too Kinky Faerie. *Wolf Whistle* Here comes the beautiful faerie love machine! You like all things sexy and think its not just a method of reproduction but an art, and a fun one at that! Also, you rather relationships don't last too long. Your pretty flirty and love having a laugh and getting to know people but be careful who you seduce, you don't want to break anyones heart really. Or do you? ;-)
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A Too Kinky Faerie | | 85% | A Too Sporty Faerie | | 60% | A Too Depressed Faerie | | 55% | A Too Sweet Faerie | | 50% | A Too Serious Faerie | | 50% | A Too Evil Faerie | | 50% | A Too Lazy Faerie | | 45% | A Too Silly Faerie | | 45% | A Too Astral Faerie | | 45% | </td>
Which Dysfunctional Faerie are You?
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You Are 24 Years Old |
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Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.
13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.
20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.
30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!
40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.
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[08 Feb 2005|06:12pm] |
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Well I went to update today and i realized that all the entries I have made in the past week have been for my eyes only. I guess that is kinda good in that I have been finding important things in my searches that I feel necessary to write about. But at the same time I feel that there are a few things that I can and would like to share with you folks perhaps it will be as thought provoking for you as it has been for me.
One of the biggest themes in my thoughts and meditations has been the meaning of what it is to be alive. Yes we live and will go on living with very little effort but what kind of life is that. An undirected unfulfilled life with no goals will tend to end up in that same spot. This I realized was very much how I had been living my life. I have had very few thoughts on true future, I mean I had ideas about what I would like to see but had no plan of action. Thus I think I was waiting for life to happen to me. Now I'm not trying to say that we have to have a plan for every moment of every day and all of this must have a purpose but what I am saying is that if we have goals and direction then we can begin moving forward. I think that the direction that all human life tends to go toward fulfillment of potential and happiness.
Well thats a kinda duh statement there isnt it =) but you know that it isnt that easy. What holds us back from out potential well thats not so easy but if you think you may find that it is anxiety, fear, neurosis, but most of all the unwillingness to take a chance. To grow we must take chances but if we are not ready to take the chances then we will not and it is our angst that keeps us from being able to take the chances. Now we get into a long long discussion about what the basis of angst and how we deal with it. Every psychologist has their own ideas on what and how to do this but that is not for me to decide but if you are interested I can give you some names of authors and books that are have been very helpful to me as of late.
But I digress, one thing that I am trying to do with my life to help me live in the now and actually live my life is to be aware of the presencing of the present. That is to say I am trying to witness the essence of true being as it manifests in day to day events. One very good example of this is to try looking at the sunrise. Every day that same sun rises in our life we can have seen thousands of sunrises but the challenge is to see every sunrise as if it is the first. Dont take advantage of the easy assumption that this one will be just the same as the last just as that was the same as the one before it. Throw away those assumptions and be aware that each experience is new and unique in its own right. For those of us that dont stay awake to see the sun rise you can and should try this exercise with any event in your life. Remember the first taste of your favorite food how it tasted and smelled and was special. There are so many things we do every day that used to mean so much to us that have now become mundane. My meditations have lead me to see how many things I have missed and taken advantage of even with the people that mean the most to me.
Today we did a very interesting and difficult exercise that I thought Id share with you all. First we sat and centered for about 5min. Then we were instructed to think about being told that we have just been diagnosed with a terminal illness be it liver cancer or what ever. Just that you are going to die and it won't be long from now. Imagine that you have two weeks between now and your death. What would you do? Where would you go? Who would you like to see? After about 5-10 min of thought on that we were told that we are now on out death bead and now have anywhere from 1hr or less until it is time. With that in mind now think about who you would like to be there and what you would say to them. Take the time to play out the conversation in your mind. Think about what you would say and what that person would say to you. After about 5-10 min of thought on that we were told that now it is over you are in your last moments of egoic life your body has ceased to function this is the last moment of being You. What goes through your mind? Give your self about 5- 10 min to think about that then when you can write down your reactions to these situations.
There was a train wreck in California and many people were killed one man was crushed and laying bleeding under the train car yelling for help. No help came so with his finger in his own lifes blood in what he thought were his last moments of life on earth he wrote. "I Love my kids. I Love my wife." He ended up living but his thoughts were very iinsightful. If you love someone tell them, cuz you never know.
Oh well I guess thats probably more than enough for now if you can try the exercise see what you come up with. I wish all of you well. Frank
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[31 Jan 2005|01:27am] |
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Well damn I know I said that I was plannin on updating more often but circumstances beyond my control have forced me to stay off my compy. As I stated last entry I have moved into a new apartment and things are goin ok with that. My roommates are a bit odd. One tends to funnel Natty Lite on Monday nights the other is a postal worker and part time student that is a bit reclusive. The only real problem is that living with guys again has lead to a rather unhappy kitchen because things are a good bit nastier than I like to see when I try to cook dinner. Another problem is that there has been no internet thus no posts. The main cause of my lack of internet I feel is that I have recently started playing Ever Qest II which for the short times that I have been able to play has been great. Way better that EQ I.
More importantly than that is school. That after all is the reason that I am up here in the first place. Both of my classes are goin very very well. They are just what I think I needed at this point in my life; In so far as helping me to become better aquainted with the program here as well as helping me to begin on a self rediscovery journey. I have started attending a Buddist meditation group which meets 3 times a week. This has gotten me in touch with myself in ways that I havent felt in many years. I have also started workin with my tarot cards more and more and they never cease to amaze me with the insites and clarity that they impart. So more and more Im finding my spritual self again and reassessing my belief systems.
Several other going ons around here are note worthy. The psych students here like to try and get together on Sundays to play soccer =) So this past Sunday week I put on my old cleats and went out to prove how out of shape I am. Things were goin rather well untill I actually had to run more than 5 steps. Yeah Im an old fart now and a good bit out of shape so ive decided to try and bike more (as it warms up) and drive less.
I am also expecting a call back from a potential job at some point this week. The whole thing about workin for the apartment complex didnt pan out so I started lookin for a different job and one kinda stood out. Its a brew pub/ steak house. They are still in construction but will be gettin open here in the next few weeks. The pub will be brewing their own beers *YUMMY* and the kitchen looks to be put together rather well. When I went in for the interview I was aked what Id like to do and I told the guy that Id like to get my hands into a bit of everything. Which kinda took him by suprise but I told him of my somewhat ecletic work history and he said that he had had some simmilar experiences so he understood.
Lets see other than that, OH yeah my best friend got married last weekend. Yes Alexis got married and I was the psudo maid of honor =) No I didnt get to wear a dress but at the after party I got a fuzzy muff (kinda a inside joke) The wedding was nice not as depressing as the last one I went to but still made me very thoughtful and marose.
Ah yeah the weather was interesting this past weekend. You may or may not know that there was a ice storm that hit the northern part of the state and that just happens to be where I am =( It wasnt too bad in LaGrange but there was a loss of power from late Friday night until today. On a related and cool side note my Mom is alergic to cats and so now that my cat lives there she is having trouble so in a effort to reduce the ammount of hair and dander we had the cat shaved=) No hes not naked but he has been shaved down to about a 1/4 inch or less of hair over most of his body. They had to sedate my kitty to get him to sit still as you may guess. But his tail and face still look the same all big and poofy he just is alot skinnier just in time for the cold. He actually looks to be takin it very well and the vet was amazed that it was mostly cat and not all hair. Ive seen smaller dogs than my cat. For those of you who know kitty if you want pics of my shaved kitty just let me know Im gettin my mom to take a few pics and email them to me later this week so I should be able to send em out at some point.
Well I guess thats about it I hope you are all doin very well I miss you all talk at ya later - Frank
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Well lets see its been two months since my last entry and I must say that these past months have been very interesting so lets begin. As you know I got into grad school but there was soooo much to do to get ready. Financial aid, housing, shopping, and so much more that I needed to do before classes started, oh and two jobs that left me with very little spare time to do it all in. So for most of the time between November and the new year was spent working and getting some padding in my wallet.
Most of November and December flew past with no real progress being made other than getting the last of the paperwork sent in. So I decided that I needed to quit my jobs starting this year so that I could make the trips up to Carrollton that needed to be made. It turns out that in the Psych department there are no advisers and only two classes are required in the whole masters program everything else is up to you. Ok so lots of freedom but at the same time I kinda would have liked some direction to aide my decisions. I started reading through the course catalog and DAMN I nearly wet my pants! There were tons of courses that jumped out at me. Psychology of Dreams, Psychology of Myth and Symbol, Eastern and Transpersonal Psychologies, Psychology of Love, Transpersonal Development, Clinical Hypnosis, Buddhist Psychology, Music and the Mind just to name a few. All I could think was I wanna take this one and this one and this one . . . well needless to say I couldn't take them all in my first semester so I had to make a few cuts.
Coming from GSU I had very little background in Humanistic/Transpersonal psych so in the end I decided to take both of the two foundation classes, the only two required classes, at the same time. One is called Foundations in Humanistic/Transpersonal psych so that sounded like a good choice for someone with very little understanding of the basic school of thought in which I'm lookin to get a degree from. Here is the catalog entry on the class "An examination of the paradigm of psychology as a specifically humanistic discipline. Its focus is on the historical origins and philosophical foundations of this approach." My next class was called Human Growth and Potential, "Self-disciplined inquiry to facilitate greater awareness of where one is coming from so as to attain greater freedom in relation to where one is going."
Ever take a class with that as a main goal? Also as a class requirement we are gonna have to keep a journal so depending on how personal it gets you should be hearing more and more from me.
So now I have the classes I'm gonna take, I have the cash commin, so whats left? Oh yeah I need a place to live, Oops. Well this past Saturday we had a meet and great for the psych program. I went up and met a few of my classmates while drinking excellent coffee for a very reasonable price. When was the last time you got a 20oz coffee in a coffee house for $3? Not at a starbucks thats for sure. Well it turns out we have some very interesting folks in the program everything from a girl fresh out of undergrad that would fit into any treehugger stereotype you can think of to a 58 year old ex-chiropractor. So I asked around about where a few good places to live were and one was called River Place. I was told that it was all inclusive rent and utilities for about $360 so I went to have a look. The place looks like Statesboro place and Campus Club had a baby. Its nice and new and clean. Sounded too good to be true. Well it was =( First off and most importantly NO PETS was boldly stamped on the info packet. So I thought well heck it cant hurt to ask the management about an exception cuz no way in hell am I gettin rid of my cat. Well I wasnt able to talk them into allowing me a pet but I have been offered a job =/ They want me to be their IT person and fix the network for them. So I think to myself ok so no pets but all I'd have to do is work 15hrs a week pluggin in modems and setting up network connections for stupid freshmen and that would pay all my rent and utilities. Now I jsut need beer money =) I did see a flier for a position in the art department that pays $9 per hour for nude models =) That sounds like a great way to get my face out on campus.
Well classes started on Monday and the drive is anywhere from 40min to an hour each way. Thats a bit more than I'd like to drive four times a week. So I talked to my mom and she said that I could leave Kitty here so that he could play with his friends Leo (my moms cat) and Moose (my step dads dog) both of whom are scared of Kitty =) So it looks like I'm gonna have a nice place to live in cool little town with some cool folks but no cat =( I may be movin in as soon as this weekend. I just hope that I can find a new place to live by the end of the summer so that I can take my cat with me for next semester.
So there ya go thats whats been goin on in my life in recent months. I cant tell you all how much fun it is to be back in school. I've been wanting to be back ever since I got back from europe. I miss you all and wish you the best.
Frank
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[20 Nov 2004|11:27am] |
Hey bitch, you're MAGNETO. You enjoy killing off
the human race so that mutants like yourself
can live freely, but you keep geting stopped by
those damn X-MEN. You're hobbies include,
killing, maming and flying around in a stupid
helmet. But that doesn't matter becuse you can
control metal.Good luck destroying the human
race, JACKASS!!!!!!!!!!
Which Comic Villain could you be?
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[19 Nov 2004|11:38am] |
Your element is Fire: Strong, hot tempered,
powerful, and passionate. Well now lets see,
being fire you are quite strong and powerful,
people look up to you greatly and often seek
your protection. You have the ability to gain
many friends and you are always one people can
count on to do what you say you will do. You
are extremely loyal be it friends or family
you'll stick up for them and you are never
willing to put them in a position that could
hurt them. You know what roll you play in life,
leader, and you intend to let people know it.
Not everyone is capable of leadership but you
certainly have the willpower and flare to do
it. You have quite a temper if it shows itself,
one that can often lead you into trouble. Once
your mind is made up there is no changing it
but no one said that was a bad thing.
.:-|What is your true element?|-:. -With Anime Pictures and detailed answers-
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Well to start off; I GOT IN TO GRAD SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I just got the letter about 5min ago. Im so excited im about to pee my self =) Other than that I have been workin 2 jobs to try and bank some cash again. Workin at the country club is boring and easy but the money aint bad. Workin for my mom at the colege is kinda fun cuz i get to use a few of the skills i learned about surveys and statistics which is fun. Im gonna close for now ill prolly update later when i can think straight.
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"You must remember this, a kiss is still a
kiss". Your romance is Casablanca. A
classic story of love in trying times, chock
full of both cynicism and hope. You obviously
believe in true love, but you're also
constantly aware of practicality and societal
expectations. That's not always fun, but at
least it's realistic. Try not to let the Nazis
get you down too much.
What Romance Movie Best Represents Your Love Life?
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Another night,
The quest for peace begins again.
I close my eyes against the on coming dark.
But all I see is your face,
all I smell is your hair,
all I taste is your lips,
all I feel is the loss,
and all I hear is another tear hitting the pillow.
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Like no matter what you do nothing is the right decision?
Like the whole world has turned its back on you?
Like the sun may as well never rise again to shed light on the shadow that is your life?
That this time, this moment could be your hell?
That there is a void in your life that will never be filled?
That you have lost the best thing that could ever happen to you?
Welcome to my world =)
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Champagne High
by Sister Hazel
I wasn't looking for a lifetime with you
I never thought it would hurt just to hear
"I do" and "I do"
And I do a number on myself
And all that I thought
To be
And you'll be the one
That just left me undone
By my own,
Hesitation
And for the million hours that we were
Well I'll smile and remember it all
Then I'll turn and go
While your story's completed
Mine, it's a long way from done
Well I'm on a champagne high
Where will I be when I stop wonderin why
On a champagne high
High
Spring turned to summer
But then winter turned mean
The distance seemed right
At the time it was best
To leave, and to leave behind
What I once thought was fine and so real
To me
And while I'm still gone
On the quest for my song
I'm at your
Celebration
And for the million hours that we were
Well I'll smile and remember it all
Then I'll turn and go
While your story's completed
Mine, it's a long way from done
And I'm on a champagne high
Where will I be when I stop wonderin why?
On a champagne high
I'd toast to the future, but that'd be a lie
On a champagne high, high
Your wagons been hitched to a star
Well now he'll be your thing that's new
Yeah what little I have you can borrow
'Cause I'm old, and I'm
Blue
Well, for the million hours that we were
Well I'll smile and remember it all
Then I'll turn and go
On a champagne high
Where will I be when I stop wonderin why
On a champagne high (so high)
Toast to the future but that'd be a lie
On a champagne high
Where will I be when I stop wonderin why
On a champagne high...high...
So high, so high you left me undone
So high, so high you left me undone...
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